What if, what if, what if? I think about this every single day. About how incredible it is that my life is where it is. That I have a family, friends, an education, a job, the list goes on. Can you imagine how many tiny little actions had to line up for you to be exactly where you are today? All of the people you could have met anywhere in the world yet you find someone who warms your heart simply because you were lucky to be in the right place in the right time. Isn’t it funny how that works?
It always blows my mind to think that we will never know what the future holds. I know this sounds obvious, but every day I think about how the me two years ago could have never imagined being where I am today. My life is completely different in so many ways, and it amazes me to think on what I was missing out on back then when I thought I had everything.
But, what if? I often let this consume my thoughts, thinking of what would have happened if I didn’t go to school where I did, if I didn’t date who I did. What if my parents were still together? I can’t necessarily say that I believe in fate because I do believe that we drive much of our destiny and that we have much control over what direction our lives go. But I do believe that there are things that we cannot control, and I do think that there is something bigger out there. This is not to say that I regret any of my actions or things that happened to me, but I find it insane to think how we drive our lives.
My mind wanders day in and day out, thinking of the future and what it might hold, knowing the whole time that my future will most likely be something completely different. And that’s what I love about life. You don’t always see it coming. You learn to embrace the surprises, the changes, the things you never saw coming, and make it beautiful. And maybe your future won’t look like what you thought it would when you were a child, but I hope that you embrace all that life has to offer and you realize that the future you wind up with is just as good.